It is now September and I still never post because I'm often too tired, and the last thing I think to do is write in this. Anyways School is going well, I switched to Tuesday-Saturday schedule and I'm going to be starting my 17th week next week, I'm really excited. Week 20 is when my two week vacation starts and I'm still not sure what I am fully doing. I really wanted to go camping somewhere near the Bay Area with my friends.

OH and I experienced my first nascar race. Kirk, Hiram and I went to Fontana I guess which is by San Bernadino. We arrived early to tailgate which was a SPLENDID idea. It was about 1230 and it was 110 degrees and we had no tarp or shade. So the race started at 5, We headed in at 4 and had to walk to the other side of the track because that was just our shit luck that day. I almost passed out and had to go to the aid center to cool off cuz I got heat stroke. But after all that rest i got we had to go make it to the seat by 5 to watch the start of the race, 5 hours later Jimmie Johnson wins. wooooo freakin hooo. anyways then we go back to the car where 120,000 people were trying to leave the parking lot, so we sat for 2 more hours than made the trip home. fun fun heres a nice pic of very early on in the day


OH and I have to talk about my first cutting client the Saturday before last. It was my very first cutting client, a tall woman with pretty hair that was a few inches past her shoulders. She looked a little wrecked not gonna lie. Anyways she wanted an A-line bob, which I wasn't scared to do, since we practiced this and whatever it was gonna be fine. When I went to shampoo her hair, she was like where are you from, and I told her the Bay Area, because whenever I say San Jose, someone thinks I mean Mexico, or Costa Rica (idiots right?) So she says oh cool the Bay Area is great, people are so real there not fake like LA. (whatever people are fake everywhere) Then she says "So did you leave your girlfriend back in San Francisco" I totally giggled in my head at what a huge assumption that was, though I was not offended at all, I just say no my boyfriend actually came to LA to live with me. Anyways past that she says how her and her boyfriend were having sex and in the middle of sex he tells her how his friend is jealous of her since she has huge tits. she actually called her tits tits... not boobs or breasts or chest, but tits cuz shes classy like that, and it was totally weirding me out. She also told me to punch her in the head since she had no feeling in it since she got into a car accident, and she was like really tug on it, hit me if you want hit me... anyways i did a nice job i thought on her A line bob, it was pretty easy so i was happy.

2nd client, was convex layering (nice quiet lady) whatever, it was my first time layering long hair and i was scared but it was really fun.

3rd client was barbering omg. i was so scared... this man had a facon and he was really really nice and I did a decent job but it took fucking forever and i had tons of hair poking my boobs it sucked.

ive gotten 5 dollar tips on every one i did, i gotta start a$$ kissing soon. great

yo yo yo yo baby-pop,  yeah you, come here gimme a kiss.
Okay so no update in a million years because school plus driving makes jackie a dull girl. also i just stumble in the door shove food in my mouth and watch tv on the couch till i pass out at 9pm haha. no really i have been really tired this week because we had wednesday off for the 4th of july so kirk and i woke up at 6 am on my stinkin day off to drive to san diego. We spent the whole day on the beach then watched fireworks on brian gilberts roof. the beach was packed, but the weather was nice, i did get a little burn. I didnt put sunscreen on kirks legs and he was wearing shorts, so now it looks like he has a pair of permanent red sox on up to his knee its beautiful really. I miss my mother and my grandmother and my papa. My papa i have not physically touched since before february. that makes me sad. He has moved to a prison in tracy, where he might be up to 4 more months. I really really miss him a lot. I have seen him but every time is behind glass and its crappy. Then i went to school the next day so tired, then after school i went to Brea to see Megan because she turned 21 and we went to the improv and saw John Pinnette who is hilarious, his whole act is about food and hes a large man and so cute, and his act was so funny. Also i saw Ratatouille and it was the cutest movie i have ever seen it also inspired me. hahaha <3

I started my second week of cosmetology school. a 44 week program which includes 2 weeks of vacation at week 21 and 22. So far so good. My body is starting to get comfortable at waking up at 6, which is swell since my eyelids weighed 50 pounds each last week. I have finally submitted to caffeine in the form of a coffee drink, never needed that shit before, welcome the 9-5 routine for the rest of my life. Its a vicious cycle. Yet i feel adult now, i feel wonderful. hahahaha. okay but seriously im getting into a routine. wake up at 630 get ready leave house at 730 sit in traffic to school (12 mile drive) for an hour listening to adam corolla, school from 9-5 with 2 breaks and a lunch then walking to my car to sit in the car for another hour on the way home but this time listening to music, and occasionally tom likis when i feel like listen to dumb women.

So, i have shampooed my doll head, and i have started to cut a one length cut. we didnt finish today, so we are working on that tomorrow. were probably going to shampoo each other (the students) to practice on a real person. those doll heads are a little difficult, plus they have no bone structure its hard to part their heads, but this will only making parking and sectioning easy peasy with real people heads.

The TLC show about my school aired, it looked pretty cheesey, fake girls making the school look laguna beach like. Everyone there i have met seems motivated and glad to be there as well as stylish and cute.

I love my teachers, I have yet to really get to know a few but everyone seems great there, and my teacher whos working with us right now is really great.

I went to sprinkles cupcakes i beverly hills they charge like 3 bucks a cupcake, and they are fucking delicious. I got red velvet (7 out of 10) Chocolate Coconut (10 out of 10!!!) and i have yet to eat my carrot and vanilla cupake. Its like baby cakes and you get a slice of every kind you like, who can beat that you know?

My first week of school was so fun, but the commute plus school plus the commute plus making dinner causes me to pass out at an early hour to wake up at an early hour.

Im going to shampoo a classmate and do my very first cut on monday, on my doll head just a one length cut im pretty excited to already start doing hands on stuff, we took a lot of notes this week.

Ive met some really cool people in my class that i can tell im going to get along with really well.

Im really excited because Marianna Neil and Hiram are visiting for Memorial day weekend, and thats the same weekend as the chuck liddel fight and i miss watching ufc with friends, and cooking for friends hehe.

My god.
I had filed a police report for my father because he was incarcerated. I did this a month ago March 31st. My fathers insurance and auto loan company have been calling me very early in the morning to wake me up and ask me all kinds of questions. I gave them the case number and they finally left me alone when i said a thousand times my father hasnt recieved an official release date. They called again today because they said the police told them over a month ago there was a case number however they had no leads and were not pursuing the case. Then they called back again recently and the police officer didnt have a case under that same number. So i call the police and they said the car is still reported stolen and im like well i gave you the name of the man who had the car last (my dads roomate) who also told me he would return the car to me and leave it at andys bbq for me. Never did, i had to call and call for two weeks leaving message after message. Finally kirk and i call him at 2am and ofcourse a crank head is up waiting for calls then, picks up immediatley then tries to say someone else took the car from him. We realized we cant deal with this guy hes a liar a drug addict and its a headache right before we move. The cops were like we can call this guy but hes some crankster an so was your dad, theres not much we can do. Your dad needs to get on a new path and get real friends who dont do that. Well thanks captain obvious, it is still a stolen car, and they basically told me we dont really care but if you see the guy call us well pick him up. too bad i dont live in the city. It is my fathers fault 100% he even told me dont worry about it... but i cant help it. I know how much it means to him and it hurts me. I hate the way the police officer was talking to me, like i was an idiot.

My mom tells me everday how beat she is. Shes working all day everyday, she never gets a day off, and my step father isnt helping her a whole lot. It breaks my heart. Makes me think i should have never left San Jose, but i really needed to do something for my own good. I want to start school so I can get all of this off of my mind. Ive been stuck in a whole, and when were around friends its really hard for me to interact. Im really sensative and the littlest things kirk does to me make me cry really hard. I just cant imagine when life will be fun and refreshing again. I feel selfish for moving to Los Angeles. My mom is dying without Kirk and i feel so bad. RAH

Maybe all this will go away on tuesday. after i sit through an hour of traffic on the way to school, or the 8 hours of class or the hour i will sit in on the way home, or maybe when i go home and take a bath.

Well what has happened latley? I went to San Diego with Kirk to visit Brian Gilbert, it was really fun at night just a lot of kids and bars. The next day we went to the San Diego Zoo which was totally amazing, its huge and wonderful. My favorite animal to see was probably the gorillas because they were holding and playing with their babies. Then this baby ducky got lost from his family and was running around with the gorillas and the baby gorilla was chasing the baby ducky but the baby ducky jumped into the water and made it free. whew.

Kirks parents came to stay with us, and we showed them hollywood and some good eats it was pretty fun. They only stayed one day though and back to san jose they went.

My dad turns 50 next week, thats a big birthday. Sadly he will be in jail still but, he is safe and sober and has all the love and support of his family and i hope that makes up for a shitty birthday dinner. I miss him terribly. I can see a huge change in him in so many ways. He finally agreed to go to a rehab when he gets out of jail if i feel he should, but by then i think a 12 step program or N/A meets will be okay, he might be living with my grandma too so that would be amazing, and he can get his life back because he really deserves it.

I was watching this documentary on the club kids in new york, like michael alig and the party monster movie, there was this guy who video taped everything, this random guy who had a really good video camera for it being the late 80s i was suprised. His name was Nelson and he caught a lot of the gay scene in new york in the 80's and was like walking down the street with Rupaul and Lady Bunny and Michael Musto who i think is a really funny writer. Its suprising to me that so many famous people came from those groups, they all partied yet made their own names for themselves like Richie Rich and well anyways i hate to glorify these kids but thier life really interested me. I cant believe Michael is a murderer he seems so warm and nice. enough of that.

I cut my hair shorter, about above my shoulders kind of an a line cut, and i got my roots bleached and my hair toned for the first time in a salon, i had always done it myself. megan did it for me, and the bleach doesnt hurt im so used to it, but it ended up burning my scalp, it was on longer and under heat, when i do it at home i just leave it on for a while anyways when she toned it it was the craziest pain i had ever felt my lips were quivering and i was humming really loud, the stylist next to her was like why is she singing haha. after all that it ended up beautiful and light blonde beauty is pain, i told megan next time id have to pop a vallium no way could i ever go through that shit again my god. Maybe sometime soon ill have a new color scheme or something dark that doesnt melt my head.

This last episode of the office makes me smile so hard it hurts!!!!!!

My boyfriend thinks hes cute here he is with his bologna peice of art and his PBR

waiting for school to start cant wait. went to san jose for the week and it was nice, but la is nice too. My mom is getting new couches and a dining room table and shes really happy which makes me happy. I missed my appointment visit with my dad so now i dont know when i will see him next and his trial is still pending which is really difficult for me because i really like to have a time frame on things but thats life. alex had a crazy 21st birthday was out by midnight hehe its okay heres some pics from san jose

friends hanging out being weird
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alexs 21st birthday at the kings head and kharteums
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Today for dinner I prepared ribeye steaks, with grilled onions seasoned to perfection. toot toot, that was me tooting my own horn. and spinich salad, as well as sweet potato steak fries. yum right? then kirk and i decide to drive around west la in the lexus which i came down to and all the windows were rolled down with the sunroof open which i never do, the car was still locked i was totally freaked out,  and i found out there is a feature if i hold down the unlock button for 2.5 seconds on my key chain it opens all my windows and sunroof what a LAME ASS FEATURE thanks for telling me lexus!!!!!!!!!! i got scared

nehoo i wasnt even hungry after my huge dinner then kirk wanted to stop at kfc and i ate hella honeybbq wings and mac and cheese and i wasnt even hungry.

trya banks has things thing called like the SO WHAT campaign and she says, i may have cellulite, i may look big but SO WHAT and she asks women what their so what insecurity is

SO i have  cellulite and some serious love handles SO WHAT. my boyfriend loves me and my soft and squishy side and i eat good SO WHAT. haha i love u trya beans your gonna take over the world.

For all the families that lost loved ones in Virginia i pray for you tonight and ill light a candle and my heart goes out to you. <3

I went to the grove in anaheim which is right next to where the angels play, which is kind of cool. This guy from the best week ever went on first, followed by Sarah Silverman who was absolutley poo in your pants hilarious! loved it, and then we waited in the cold for 10 minutes cuz it was only like 930 and she came out and was like "your so cute" cuz i told her i watch her dvd jesus is magic over and over and over, and i brought it and a sharpie just in case (im a total goober) so she signed it "check out these" and drew an arrow pointing to her boobs, and she gushed about jimmy kimmel cuz i said he was cute, and i just went to his show on thursday which is kinda weird, youd think i was stalking the couple.

On the way home we were listening to love line, and this girl called in because she thought she had herpes because she met Mr. Boston (from hit show I love new york) haha and invited him to her bday party and kissed him and got a wart inside her mouth, she suspects him because he tried to get down with everyone there, and she just found out he was dating pumpkin from flavor of love, who has kissed flava flav, so in a way shes kissed flava flav. OH MY GOD. Most entertaining call of ever.

Laundry day tomorrow, and im gonna use up some gift cards cuz wut else do i gotta do?

i just wanna start school already

ill be in san jose on 4-20 till the following wednesday lets get stoned.

in the words of sarah silverman... Keep it Sleazy Beezie

Wuusssup Everybodies? im going to see sarah silverman tonight. i cant wait. im going to pee my pants.